Standing on Crutches

Take A Stand So You Won’t Be On Crutches
“The strongest thing that any human being has going is their own integrity and their own heart. As soon as you start veering away from that, the solidity that you need in order to be able to stand up for what you believe in and deliver what’s really inside, it’s just not going to be there.” Herbie Hancock

The Perfect Lovers - Standing on Crutches

Take A Stand
Lilith, also called the Black Moon is a figure in Jewish mythology, who is portrayed as Adam’s first wife. She was created at the same time as Adam and from the same dirt but she left Adam because she refused to become subservient to him. Lilith is known to lead others into to the deepest and darkest corners of their being, where they will face their dark-sided beliefs and repressions. She will help to dredge up all the old and inferior tendencies so that we gain some strength and power in mastering our inner world and overcoming subservience. Lilith helps you discover subconscious limitations, fears or programming that keep you from your optimum self.

Any problems or tensions we encounter with others, is actually our own problem which is mirrored back to us so we can become conscious of it. You will easily notice it… for it begins with the feeling of an inner tension within – thats the signal there is a problem, it is our own, and it is to be found and solved.

I visited A Blind Psychic the other day and he chatted for about 15 minutes into my hour session on some dire earth changes and problematic world situations which could affect us in negative ways unless we prepared for it. I patiently and calmly waited for him to finish with his rants and raves but started to notice a bit of tension building for I had requested a personal reading and not a world reading and my time was ticking by. Finally when my own personal story appeared, I was informed not to expect to live very long for he saw me in a car accident and leaving for heaven on Pagasus wings. His view had me on a stretcher rushed to the hospital with my deceased mother clothed as an angel holding me, for she was concerned and trying to protect me from something that was about to happen. The psychic recounted that I will die and ascend quickly and in the process…. meet with Beauty, my dog who is in spirit. I also see you being unable to walk and your sister will be gone in the next 5 years.

What a mouthful! On reflection of the psychic’s talk, I noticed from the get-go that I had felt an inner tension as I patiently waited for the psychic to begin my personal reading… as I felt captive to have to listen to this preliminary talk of negative earth changes and world events. I was resisting his pressure as he tried to influence and engage me in conversation about world events. I did this by placing a big “X” placed over the negative images that flew continuously out from his mouth. Eventually he noted that it was strange that I did not participate in talking with him about it like all of his other clients.

I felt I also had to place an X over most of the imagery he presented in my own personal story as it was not to my liking. Finally at the end of the session I asked him if there was something I could do to improve my situation that he saw…. to which he quickly remarked: spiritually I was in the “light” but “informationally” there were differences in the taking in of opinions and that I should make a concerted effort to keep my eyes and ears open.

That night during sleep I tossed and turned. My eyes and ears were open. I felt twinges and cramps moving around in my right leg and for the next day and week that followed, I had difficulty walking and had to order a pair of crutches in order to get around. I pulled Michael Lincoln’s book “Messages from the Body” off the shelf. It presented the concept of when parts of the body become imbalanced it can relate to a particular psychological meaning, because of our mind/body connection. Accordingly, the right knee which was where the problem was focused, related to basic belief violations where a foundation that was once cherished becomes betrayed, resulting in intense issues around selecting directions to take to manifest one’s destiny. The book asked: are you afraid to speak up and take a stand or are you resistant to an external influence, perhaps some perceived authority? Do you not fully comprehend what is happening or might there be missing links that make you feel unable to cope and function effectively? I came to understand from the blind physic experience that it is important for me to take a verbal stand right in the moment when I feel the tension mounting… because that moment to express myself may never come again. Developing communication skills for the first alarm bell that rings of tension will be important for me so that the inner tension can be released and does not find another place to lodge in my body as I ponder about the meaning of it.

When one person does not take a stand, power issues can come up just as it does in a boxing match. In a relationship for example – imagine a cartoon character to depict a wife, such as a strict traffic cop. This woman belittles her easy-going, flexible husband whose dearest wish is to have a happy, peaceful relationship and he bends over backwards to please. Finally, one day he realizes his integrity had become compromised when his young son asked “you’re afraid of her aren’t you?”He then starts to take a stand on his behalf when the occasion calls for it, but the traffic cop will not back down and therefore the couple are now separated.

Another instance is a young boy spending summers with an Aunt who loved to spank him for whatever reason she could find, and she would do it often. The boy never spoke up even though he knew things were not quite right. Now fully grown he seeks the services of a disciplinarian who will spank him. Yet he finds himself in a bind for he is unable to speak up to his wife to ask for permission to take time off for himself so he can sneak away to visit his professional disciplinarian who does spanking.

Personally, I forgive myself for not taking a strong stand when I commissioned The Blind Psychic to paint some pictures for me that were not to my liking and which I certainly did not want to have in my collection. On a positive note I have also learned to keep in balance the cycle of gathering in and giving out… and if I am doing too much on one or the other side I will always be reminded of The Blind Physic. Take A Stand So that You Too Won’t Be Left On Crutches!

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